Sunday, February 04, 2007

Why stress just might kill me...

Sometimes I wonder if I take on too much at once...I've never been someone with killer patience. I often want to do more than I can.

Case and point...

Buying a townhouse....Last night, as I sat around with my beautiful friends, we realized what this opportunity means for all of us. A space for us to grow into, where we can be comfortable and relaxed with each other. And what it means for me...it's going to be an amazing opportunity.

Moving up in my career...beautiful and dangerous at the same time. Having people recognize what I am capable of is always a good thing...changing positions, probably not ideal in the midst of everything.

Kenya...I'm nervous about making my fundraising goals. I shouldn't be, I know that the trip is suppose to happen and I'm suppose to be on it. I feel it in my gut, but what if? What if I can't do it? What if I can't find the money? Maybe it's a bad idea...(I know it's not, but this is a thought that is running through my head).


Anyways, I'm hoping my attitude changes before New Orleans because I want to enjoy my time...but I'm also hoping that stress isn't real and that everything will eventually come together. Until then, I think I'll go get some coldstone.

2 comments:

Ally said...

Meghan, welcome to the journey!

I'm on the Soulfari board and just went for the first time last summer. Keep the faith...trust me, it'll happen.

I posted a blog about my travails too. Feel free to check it out www.upendo.blogspot.com (most of the good stuff's in the earlier archives).

Anyway, I'll be praying for you and sending good vibes your way. Get ready to have your life changed.

Anonymous said...

Megs,
I remember last March sitting in my dorm room thinking the same thoughts you're having about financing your trip. I remember having a full blown panic attack about it too...especially since the plane ticket was booked, and so unrefundable...

You will make it. God will provide the finances. I want you to have confidence in that...you will go and have the time of your life. Money always works itself out. They say it's the "root of all evils" but I truly believe that if we look at it the right way, it's one of the best ways we can learn to rely on our faith. Have faith that HE will be faithful and I think you'll be surprised at who will donate, pray, think of you, help you out, or send you another message to convince you it's going to be okay :-)

With that...can I hide in your suitcase?!!! I want to GO!!! I'm jealous but so proud of you...


love,
liz